At Your feet…

*Scroll down to read the lyrics to this song*

I’m in wonder and grief at the thought of the price of sin. God’s word doesn’t change. God doesn’t change. His laws are perfect and never change. The only thing that’s changed is how we go about receiving his forgiveness. Before it was by the blood of a natural lamb, now its by the blood of Jesus.*

I got a crash course in my family legacy this week. It was totally unexpected and seemingly spontaneous, until I had time to process everything. Now it seems it was meant for a specific purpose, although what that is, I don’t know yet. I was chatting online with a family member when our conversation turned to family relations. I never knew much about my dad’s side of the family except that he was raised by his grandmother. When I was younger, I recall trying to ask about it, but the issue was obviously skirted around because my questions never got answered. In two nights, my unanswered questions uncovered years of heartache, pain, and sin. It was heart breaking and explained so much. The many years of bitterness, resentment and hurt that I had carried because of my relationship with my dad seemed to finally make some sense.

Its been almost two months since my deliverance session. I mark this date so much because it is such a major turning point in my walk with the Lord (for the record, it is the Spirit of God that has set me free, not necessarily a ministry).* There has been so much clarity and so much realization of the spiritual realm that we, as Christians, live in. And so much awareness of the battle between the temptations and enticing of our natural desires and the leading of the Holy Spirit. The Spirit realm is real. Whether or not we choose to believe, the fact remains, there are spiritual laws just like there are natural laws and legal laws. Just as there are consequences to breaking natural and legal laws, there are consequences to breaking the spiritual laws of God. When we break them, we sin. There are consequences to our sin and consequences to the sins of our fathers that can affect us, even to the third and fourth generations. The consequences of my ancestors sin has been felt by each family to follow. Dysfunction leads to more dysfunction. Hurt leads to more hurt. The decision to not follow God’s ways breed family examples that don’t glorify God or acknowledge a need for Him. More spiritual laws are broken; more consequence follows. Praise God He has called me out of the pit, set my feet on solid ground and brought the darkness into His Light.

I am so convinced of my need for Jesus and how high the stakes are! If we would only realize that there is no Life apart from Him! And if we DO realize that, if only we could stay humble before God, willing to die to our own desires so that we can live for His!! Deception creeps in so subtly and before we know it, we’re proud, bitter, angry, unforgiving, impatient, depressed, etc. Just when I think I’ve gotten new Light to walk in and can let up on the fight between the spirit and the flesh, I lose my way. What can be more convincing of my need for Jesus, to stay close to His feet and to always be alert. It is in no way a game. It is in no way just an opinion that can be passed by without serious repercussions. God is holy. His ways and standards are perfect and we are in no way perfect. And only the blood of His Son, Jesus, can cover our sin and failures and make us able to stand before Him in heaven.

…Father God, have mercy. We need Your mercy. Lord, I am nothing without You, I don’t know why I try to be something without You. I have no words of Life to offer anyone. I have no Light to offer anyone. But You spoke and created Light and separated it from the darkness. You spoke and created Life! Your words of truth bring freedom. Sin has cut us off from Your presence, but you knew about it and had planned for our redemption before the foundation of the world was set. Before You even spoke the world into existence You had this plan of redemption through the blood of Jesus set up! My life is in You Lord. Nothing good comes from me. Nothing good is in me, and if there IS any good found in me, it is actually Your Spirit that lives in me, I only get to carry the fruit of it for Your glory. Open our eyes Lord. Amen.

*If you would like to know how we can be forgiven by Jesus’ sacrifice on the cross, please email me.
*Please try to put debate about demons and Christians aside. All glory goes to God for the freedom I am now walking in.

*At Your Feet – Casting Crowns (lyrics)*
Here at Your feet, I lay my past down
My wanderings, all my mistakes down
And I am free

Here at Your feet, I lay this day down
Not in my strength, but in Yours I’ve found
All I need, You’re all I need

Jesus, Jesus, at Your feet
Oh, to dwell and never leave
Jesus, Jesus, at Your feet
There is nowhere else for me
There is nowhere else for me

Here at Your feet, I lay my future down
All of my dreams, I give to You now
And I find peace, I find peace
Here at Your feet, I lay my life down
For You my King, You’re all I want now
And my soul sings…

‘Cause I am free (here at Your feet)
All I need (is at Your feet)
I find peace
We’re at Your feet
We’re at Your feet

And I am free (here at Your feet)
All I need (is at Your feet)
I find peace
We’re at Your feet
We’re at Your feet
We’re at Your feet
We’re at Your feet

Here at Your feet
I lay my life down


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